"No matter where you came from, no matter where you're going, no matter what your parents tell you, what the mirror tells you, no matter what MySpace tells you, every single one of you, is loved."

- Aaron Gillespie


hi, i'm sammie.

it doesn't matter what this says,

you've already made your assumptions about me.


these are the last notes of a fading love song whose words are losing their meaning a little more every day. and i wouldn't be surprised if its all over by tomorrow. so for all of you people out there in search of a moment of clarity you can be sure its never coming. and i would be a liar if i said it never crossed my mind to kill every single one of you just so i could hear you scream. but maybe the saddest part of life is that behind every person who is dying stands a long line of ones who never got a chance to live. and even if you could reach out and touch the cold hard shell i've wrapped my flesh in you would still never see that it was made to protect me from you. well what more could you expect from the world. from the blindfolded fools who grab at the stars while they spit at the sun. but never seem to be able to pick each other up off the ground when they fall. and with fingers pointing in every direction we look for someone to take the blame for everything. when will you learn to stand on your own two feet. open up your eyes and see that what you have isn't half as bad as what you deserve because not one among us is innocent. and sadder still is that we believe unconditionally that if we pour out our hearts like water, our sacrifice will be returned some day. no light will ever shine on us until we can wash our hands of the past. no light will ever shine on us as sure as angels will never come to save the devil.


i make a bigger deal out of things then they really are. i get jealous too easily. i swear too much. i care too much about the way i look. i'm way too insecure. i never think i'm good enough. i wear too much makeup. i over analyze things. i have trouble talking about my problems, or how i feel. i always fall for the wrong guys. i need music to feel whole. i love editing pictures. i spend too much time on the computer. i would die without my friends. i'm a perfectionist. i don't like a lot of people. i'm nice if you're nice back. i cry a lot. i can come off like a bitch. i have a really great boyfriend. i wish i was more outgoing. i hate talking on the phone. i can't keep a good conversation going for my life. i can't stand it when people repeat things.

late nights. perfume. music. videogames. piercings. tattoos. make-up. big hair. fake eyelashes. final fantasy. nanime. timmies. hairspray. friends. family. fashion. gold earrings. tight jeans. weed. chewing gum. shopping. bubbles. shows. money. big bags. bold eyelier. bright lipgloss. art. long conversations. sleeping. texting. kissing. painted nails. hair straighters. myspace. pumps. big hoodies. pointless bulletins. thick eyelashes. white beads. mixtapes. my camera. girly days out. porcelain skin. msn. disney movies. hugs. photo albums. diamonds. shoes. stars. smiles. photography. happiness. peace. t-shirts. boys. hearts. zebra pattern. bows. handcuffs. necklaces. cute earrings. vodka. weed. band shirts. shows. ipods.

tokio hotel, Jack's Mannequin, Escape the Fate, illScarlett, Armor for Sleep, Dead and Divine, Four Letter Lie, Blessthefall, Alesena, AFI, Straight Reads the Line, These Silhouettes, The Medic Droid, UnderOATH, The Almost, Gym Class Heroes, Death Cab for Cutie, Cute is what we aim for, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Bring me the Horizon, Mayday Parade, A Static Lullaby, Paramore, A Perfect Circle, Marylin Manson, Saosin, Circa Survive, The Used, Infected Mushrooms, Senses Fail, Silverstein, Live on Arrival, Seether, Ten Second Epic, The Acadamy Is..., Eisley, Linkin Park, Hellogoodbye, LoveHateHero, The Spill Canvas, The Number Twelve Looks like You, From Autumn to Ashes, Drop Dead, Gorgeous, The Devil Wears Prada, Anti-Flag, Garbage, Blink 182, Faber Drive, Marianas Trench, From First to Last, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Alexisonfire, 36 Crazyfists, The Acacia Strain, All Shall Perish, All That Remains, As Blood Runs Black, As I Lay Dying, Ateryu, Between The Buried And Me, The Black Dahlia Murder, Bleeding Through, Bullet for my Valentine, Children Of Bodom, Coheed & Cambria, Dragonforce, Dream Theater, Enter Shikari, The Human Abstract, I Killed The Prom Queen, Job for a Cowboy, Killswitch Engage, Knights Of The Abyss, Norma Jean, Suicide Silence

Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Silent Hill, Resident Evil, I Am Legend, Land of the Dead, Devils Rejects, The Mad, The Return, Stay Alive, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Corpse Bride, Nightmare Before Christmas, Sleepy Hollow, Sweeny Todd

Dexter, Dead Like Me, Six Feet Under, Cribs, My Sweet Sixteen, The O.C., Card Captor Sakura, xxxHolic, Tsubasa Revoir Chronicals, Death Note, Bleach, KHR!, Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu, Air Gear, Code Geass, Gurren Lagann, Gravatation, Loveless, Gakuen Heaven, Ai No Kusabi, Prince of Tennis, Strawberry Panic, Fruits Basket, X/1999, Ouran Highschool Host Club, Sukisho, Yami no matsuei, Boku No Sekusharu Harasumen, FAKE, Fujimi Orchestra, Kizuna, Level C, Zetsuai, Sukisyo, Fushugi Yuugi, Enzai, Angel Sanctuary, Excel Saga.

Twilight, Impulse, Crank, Burned, Eclipse, New Moon, The Zombie Survival Guide